Blowing off the dust of my LJ
For one more thought... Looking forward to 2012.. Vigil is no more, but I am graduating in May.. The stress in my life is limited, though I really wish I could just make things easier..
There are other things that I can't really air out, but if anyone cares to know just msg me on facebook.. I believe that some of you on the internet have a vague idea.
But I digress.. off to a new adventure..
After this last month I have decided to discontinue Vigil... yes, again.. I am fully aware we were gaining steam again, re-purposing our brand and bringing back the original sound, but that is beside the point. I am sad to say that Dirge and I will no longer work together.. Since he hasn't expressed any interest, I haven't had any thoughts on who would be the new resident, and felt Vigil would not be the same with out him. Knowing that a lot of you look forward, and hope for another night like this I am sure I can pull some strings come mid spring.
Hopefully having a similar sound and the similar price points for a venue. This was certainly my choice, possibly our choice. But I honestly can't speak for Dirge, I have been unable to reach him in regards to this subject.
But I know Middle East would be more than happy to have Vigil again, once I have a little more dependable income I am sure I will start another night that will hopefully be still in Central Sq.
If anyone has any questions, concerns, real reasons letIe know..
I don't think talking about it to Dirge would help, so everyone please respect his space for right now.
Sincerely Team Vigil -Meghan Dahl
It all about that pink paper clip A. I am not tired B. I swore off certain networking sites till march C. Although this will be updated on FB, I am still holding true to my statement of antisocial behavior.
So I over reacted to a certain situation, knowing I should have expected it.. but I am upset and know this wasn't meant to hurt or be directed. Intentions aside though,I am still hurt.. anyways...
I went out for the first time since NYE to see my friend tonight.. Despite myself fighting the urge to go home, I kept my promise and was able to see my friend and lots of other friends. Still was a wreck, especially being at Xmortis and knowing that it was going to be off. Which it was, and I was surprisingly able to respect things..though feels like that by now pointing it out may be a little off putting.. So with maybe two mini melt downs, I was able to last a bit tonight. Mo (my friend) was sweet and took me home, we talked a bit more and now I am here.. wanting to be somewhere different. Hoping that in the AM i will attempt ballet again, though we'll have to see since my paycheck was lesser than anticipated and the bills just came in... we'll see what tomorrow brings... :/ Just wish I had a place to escape to, no clubs or cons for me this weekend...
snowed in
The plan for today, is to maybe draw a bit, watch bad horror movies and possible writing some thoughts out. Also shoveling... more shoveling.. I am fighting a slight depression wave, thinking about a lot of things. Trying to not distract from any internal processes, so I am just keeping to myself for a while. At least I have some things to look forward to... like, eye dr. & I figuring out stuff more dr. to talk about depression meds, so I need to do a ton of research before I cross that bridge. I am going to be finishing school, though finishing my major is up for debate. I may just go for my Liberal Arts degree and call it an accomplishment. Especially since I am very eager to start Assistant Managing at a restaurant and that the career path I want. I think going that direction will be worth while. Then possibly getting my MBA in 2 years or so, once I've got a plan and hope to save some money for it. There is also the whole trying to acquire a waitress job again has been very vexing. My job just had me start training, but I am still needing the extra hours. I am having trouble making ends meet, but my family has been surprisingly generous. It has been helpful for me getting by. But I am keeping my hopes up that one of these waitress jobs I have applied for will interview me. There is one place, though its in the South End, I'd have to get a car to work there. There is great potential there, they said that when they like my attitude and when I am done with school they could look into having me be an assistant manager. I am hoping for something closer to home, but the opportunity with room to grow is hard to pass. In other news I want to go out to the clubs again, but need to figure out some balance in the agreement I made with Matt. But thats a whole different thing, and I am really trying not to stress to much about things anymore. Been meditating a bit more, and doing my yoga. Trying to work out and find motivation to work out has so far been internally rewarding. Though I still feel like I am doing it wrong, but the meditation has been really worth while. I started doing all that to classical music, its been really nice reconnecting with myself. Actually going to ballet on Saturday and start belly dancing on the 19th. So that will help motivate me. Plus that will make up a bit for the dancing at the clubs I'll be skipping out on. Other than that, still thinking about things, and the break up.. things are still rather rocky.. hoping I can negociate a time to go to ceremony, I want to go and suppourt and see my friends. I really want to go to the steam punk night, but I don't think that will happen.. we'll see though.
back to the cats and off to grab some warmth...
there is so much that has happened.
where do I begin? the big news if it hasn't been made clear. I left Matt, the details are still rather grey and there is still a lot of unresolved issues between us.. So I am hoping we can both figure things out. Spending our first NYE apart after 6 years was really rough. Plus getting through the night was... difficult... and thankfully I had really great friends to help me through it. These last couple of weeks have got me thinking a lot and I still need to do a lot of soul searching before the weekend. Hoping that the emotional toll this is taking on the both of us will find some resolution. Now that the elephant in the room has been addressed. Next step is working on everything else. Here is what my plan is. Be Happy, Be patient and remember to love myself (new mantra) _______________ Settle the car Starting & Finish Classes with a good average Starting Ballet & Belly Dancing Working out & Meditation again Spending more time with my family Skydiving for Hilly & my 27th in May (Once I start waitressing again) Save for Business, Re-invest in stocks Save for the Caribean (Thanksgiving 2011) Save for other travel (Fall '11 or Spring '12) Save for other great investments Look into Piano lesson (save for piano)
1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before? Walked out on a job
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't remember what I had as a resolution. But if I make some for this year I plan on keeping them
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? They are close to me in a way, and a lot of babies happened
4. Did anyone close to you die? No.
5. What countries did you visit? N/A
6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010? Courage in myself
7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? There are lots of important dates that all have certain meanings
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? One semester closer to finishing my BA
9. What was your biggest failure? *TBD
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? sort of
11. What was the best thing you bought? I think art supplies
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? N/A
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? My own
14. Where did most of your money go? Bills and food
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Living on my own
16. What song will always remind you of 2010? Only Girl
17. Compared to this time last year, are you: i. happier or sadder? Sadder. ii. thinner or fatter? Fatter. iii. richer or poorer? skirting by with what i have
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? following through and being true
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Self-pity, and doubt
20. How will you be spending Christmas? With my family
22. Did you fall in love in 2010? Its complicated
23. How many one-night stands? no
24. What was your favorite TV program? united states of tara
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? ...
26. What was the best book you read? By the bog of cats
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? dub step
28. What did you want and get? more hours at work and my degree
29. What did you want and not get? myself
30. What was your favorite film of this year? paranormal activity
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? partied with friends... 27
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? not syre
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010? mod/hipster *hangs head in shame
34. What kept you sane? nothing yet
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? hmmm
36. What political issue stirred you the most? cyberbullying and other politics involving gay rights
37. Who did you miss? FBC. and family
38. Who was the best new person you met?
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010: stay true to yourself
Changing stuff
Got my hair cut, Got a new tattoo, and changing somethings in my life.. 2011 will be great...
Consumed by Facebook
There has been to many months that have past since I've posted and sadly not much has changed. Life is at a stailmate, and thats not a bad thing, really. I am going to start working more on myself and school, this semester has suffered some minor distractions and I am hoping to get back on track. It would be nice to get on deans list again. In other news the new apartment is nice, roomies are great and my life is becoming less stressful.
There will be a real update soon, Just saying hi and I'm alive
VIGIL this Wednesday
One year and some change, we are still going strong. This Wednesday, the 18th wont disappoint.
DJ Dirge & Lost Boy will bring those sexy summer beats to the Middlesex Lounge Goth/Industrial and Everything n between
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One year and some change, we are still going strong. This Wednesday, the 18th wont disappoint. <lj-cut text="Get Your Dance On!"><br> DJ Dirge & Lost Boy will bring those sexy summer beats to the Middlesex Lounge Goth/Industrial and <i>Everything n between</i><br> <a href="http://vigilboston.com>VIGIL Boston</a><br> <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v238/Vinyl-Raven/vigil.jpg"><br> </lj-cut> NO COVER, 21+, Doors @ 9pm Middlesex Lounge 315 Mass Ave Cambridge, Ma
With some luck..
There has been a break in my family mystery, though there are some whole that need to be filled. Right now I am looking into information about my Grandfathers wife and seeing if my father has any half siblings out there in the world.
I don't know her surname though, anyone have some pointers. Any kind of help is needed.
Utilities: N*Star gas and electric as well as Comcast TV/Internet/Phone $100-$200 per person a month depending on usage.
Transportation: One block from Massachusetts Avenue, Route 16, and the hub for the 87,88, and 89 bus lines. Walking distance to Davis square and Alewife. Within ten minutes of 93 and 95.
Resources: All located within a five minute walk; a super market, two gas stations, four convenience stores and several restaurants / pizzerias.
Rooms / Amenities: Three bedrooms, two common rooms, kitchen & bathroom. For storage we have a back porch and a large room in the basement. The apartment also has the option of an additional bedroom and bathroom in the basement that can be added to the lease for $500 a month. Additionally as part of the lease to the apartment we have exclusive access to the driveway for the property. The driveway is single lane but it does fit three cars. The neighborhood also has extensive space for resident on street parking and passes for visitors.
Personal Info: I don't smoke or drink. I have no pets. During the daytime I work as a pharmacy technician at night I DJ and promote for nightclubs. I'm a fairly quite and private person. When I'm not out of the house working (which is rather often) I'm usually in my room working on my computer or with my DJ gear.
Roommates: I'm looking for two or three potential roommates. My primary concern is finding people who can cover their share of the bills/rent in a timely manner. My home is my safe haven so finding people I can trust is important to me. Generally my rule for roommates tends to run along the "as it harms none do as you will". If you are interested please feel free to contact Dirge I can always provide more information as needed. Also if you know someone who is looking for a place feel free to pass this along Contact me if your serious about living here, and I will send you to Dirge.
:Edited: Everythings been taken. Thanks
take my stuff.... Curbed 2 Bar Stools, a Coffee Table and a TV tray.. l also have a pool table with all the fixens if you want it. On across from 64 Waterhouse St in Somerville. (Pool Table is not in the best condition, needs some TLC.)
School Stuff: I recieved a small letter in the mail saying that I made the Dean's List for my Spring '10 Semester. For those of you that know me well, words can't discribe how amazing this is. I just need to keep it up, I mean last semester I was on acidemic probation and now I am on the Dean's List. Its been a tough couple of years, I'm not going to lie. But aside from me rocking this semester, I do need to keep to it. So at least that semester paid off, I am really happy with my self. I even told my mom, cause she knows how tough school has been for me. I've certainly hit that point of, what the f**k am I doing stage. I know being 27 isn't crazy glamorous but niether is being a waitress for my remaining years. Now I am really worried about my future. I am seeing all my friends breeding, I am seeing my friends with great houses and okish jobs and I am thinking to myself I want that. Though I still have a while before any of that happens. I know that this school thing will pay off, I am remaining optimistic. Still thinking Grad School, but I was also looking into some certificate courses, and harvard extentions. I really was thinking if I can't do the enterpenuer class at Umb that I can probably take it at Harvard. I was also thinking about looking into grant writing. I think what this calls for is someone to help me plan out my goals and figure out a way to achieve them with out owing everybody money. Art Stuff: I got bit hard by a drawing/ photo bug but have no outlet or inspiration. I could just doodle and see what happens but I like to plan, and when it comes to doodeling I am self critical. I miss writing, I had a tiny journal in my purse that was my thought box, just random thoughts, I'd write up to 7-10 pages of babble. I am thinking about doing that again. Plus it will curb my impulse blank journal buying bug. Also showed some paintings, it wasn't the greatest gallery thing, but its a start. I am going to make some artist friends that have simular taste, style and see if I can work that angle you know, get shown more. The art show I had my paintings at I never went to. I got heat stroke and just was out for the count. We'll just have to see where the art stuff takes me, I just want to show case somewhere small and maybe sell photos. Nothing to crazy, I mean I am nothing to write home about when it comes to my creative side. I just wish I could do more with it. I want to create, I am a multi media sculpter and a conceptual artist. just need to be more passionate about it I guess.
Job Stuff: Still waitressing, but looking at my options, looking at other restraunts and even some art jobs. Its a work in progress. The food Network has been re-airing the Bartley's episode for a while and I am on it. So there are some customers that mention it. Its cute. Also there will be an issue of the Nat Geo Travel mag that did/ is doing something on NE and they took some pics of me. That should hit stands in september. So I'm semi-famous. We'll see how that goes.
Random side note: I was interviewed for a Halloween Book, becuase of my newest Tattoo. That book should be coming out soon, I'll let you know all about it. I also may travel to Brussels with my mother in the next to near future. Also been Urban Exploring, which is amazing, I love architecture and angles, and old buildings are just so cool.
Relationshipy stuff: Matt and I are still complicated, we hate to love each other and love to hate one another. He puts up with my shit and I put up with his putting up with my shit. I heart him so.. I am sure once I figure out my life, him and I will be back on track
Finally: I am back on two feet again, after my rather bad spill I was starting to think there was no hope for my foot and that I'd be waddeling for my remaining years. But today I test drove it with out my brace and was in very little pain. So tomorrow, I am getting back to my work out reg and keeping my fingers crossed that my foot doesn't hurt.
what an interesting process
So I bruised my ankle, by falling out of my 1st floor window. This all could have been prevented if I had not left my keys at home.. But live and learn I guess. I have all this time off to recover. So I've been reading more letters to my grandmother, from my myster grandfather.. Let me just say, my family is a little broken. But I digress, he is a tough cookie to find. But there is hope, in one of the letters he put a copy of an inspection report about the ship he was on. So it had from what I understand service numbers. I am going to mail a letter to the Navy Record Archives and hope that it will give me some info. But I digress, he was an odd duck..
More infor soon
In other news, I did great this semester.. Got and A in Art and in Poetry, then passed Science. It was an uphill battle so I am more than happy that I passed. Plus boosted my GPA
Chocolate Cheerios, where have you been all my life
Its my birthday, I want to sleep. But I am going to get threw this day, whether I want to or not. Finals are today and next week.. I remain hopeful about this semester. I've discovered the awsomeness of chocolate cheerios and sleep depervation
a real update to come.. just trying to stay awake
Been up to lots of stuff
I hate being so busy. I really haven't had anytime to rest, and with the lack of sleep I've been getting I've had a cold that I just can't shake. Let see, I've been getting my rooms ready for the move, which has been difficult. Its the whole moving on aspect that I am very bumped out about. I stopped at my bedroom, need to start the living room and am not 100% if I have to re paint the hall and kitchen. I am doing this early cause I am thinking this summer is going to be busier than I'd like it to be. In other news my semester will be ending on my birthday, which I think is lame but I can live. In terms of school I am thinking about getting my masters in Communications, though it is just a thought, I was looking into Suffolk U. I plan on seeing if there any other schools with Communications Masters. Though I feel like such a late bloomer when it comes to this BS. I just want to start my business, I just want to have this ace in my pocket just in case, getting my masters will get me a good job, with great pay.. I was talking to Matt about it actually, which I don't mind taking a break so that I can get my master then do my start up after I've settle with my job, life and chillin' So I am thinking start up business around late 30's early 40's. But I hate to have to postpone my dream.. There really isn't anything else new, just lots of thinking about PR stuff, and finishing school I think it is rather ambitious of me to look at getting a Masters since I am having so much trouble getting my BA. But I like challenges. What else? I am still on that genealogy search, so far the DNA testing that I am getting cone is inconclusive, but there is some hope. They plan on re-testing and I hope that there will be some conclusion. Then dad gave me a box filled with letters between his mother and birth father, plus old photos of my grandfather and grandmother. I could only get through one letter so far, they are all from the 40's so they are a bit fragile, but in great condition. Though my grandfathers handwriting is HORRIBLE. I am hoping I can get some answers on why my grandmother wanted them all burned. There is possible to also get some insight on who this guy was and where he ran off to.
Anyone know anything about finding information on people in the Navy?? Anywho, I'm alive and thats all the matters. This week is going to be busy with club stuff but I am also hoping that I can focus on school. Talk to the SBA and deal with some other fun stuff.
