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Well I'm on lunch right now which means "time to update LJ" Now this seems to be one habit I am sticking to. Everything else fell down the drain, but I will start back up again tomorrow in my 21 day challenge. I am more determined then ever to lose 20lbs by Halloween. I think it is doable. I just need to stay focused and ignore the random cravings for fatty foods. My co-worker found a really interesting article here about how restaurant salads are the worst thing on the menu. This has some really good links about the 20 worst drinks out there and the 20 worst foods. How do I keep shoveling that kind of garbage down my throat? It's sickening. I made a weight ticker today too and will keep it private until I make some real process. I know I can do this. If I'm not happy then I need to fix it.
In other news, I really need to clean my ipod up. JP gave me all his music and I have a ton of stuff I don't listen to. I have all the "Zelda" soundtracks and although I love Zelda, I feel like it is taking up too much space. When my Ipod died last year, and then JP's went swimming in Colombia, I was forced to downgrade from an 80g to a 64g and space is becoming an issue. Only reason I did it was so that he could hack it and it could have Gir on it and speak to me in Gladys' voice. What can I say, I'm a dork lol.
......C'est toute
Layout disaster
Well I decided it is time to fix my LJ layout. I haven't dealt with CSS in years and it is giving me a headache. I now have a "page summary" table which I need to get rid off. This is probably going to take ALOT of work.
Oyyyyye
Me speaks!
You Speak Canadian Slang
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Canadian Slang: 75%
New England Slang: 75%
Aussie Slang: 50%
Prison Slang: 25%
Southern Slang: 25%
Victorian Slang: 25%
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Pondering of a mad woman
Recently I uncovered my cousin's blog and it made me recall the years I spent pouring my heart and soul out on this screen. It made me miss having a blog to vent my frustration, fears, conundrums, trials, and tribulations. I used to consider myself a pretty decent writer and I don't know why I stopped. I guess life just took me in a different direction. Now the question is do I once again begin writing in this journal which comes attached with 7 years of hopes, dreams, and disappointments, or do I let go of all that baggage and start anew? I would like to hope I am no longer the naive and immature girl I used to be back then. So isn't it time I create a more mature version of myself for the internet world to see? I don't even have that many friends on here, but I'm perfectly fine with that. It just shows I am very selective in who I let into the wonders that is my mind. The whole world is not ready to experience that tumultuous roller coaster ride. I guess I will ponder that some more. Maybe I might just keep this for myself. I don't know yet.
One thing for sure, it feels good to write again.
.....C'est toute
I really keep meaning to update this thing. (Yes I know I start of every sporadic entry this same way). Every day I think about logging into LJ and pouring my heart and soul onto this screen just like I used to when I was in high school, but it just doesn't feel the same. It's weird to read my past entries because I can see how much I have matured over the years considering I've had this since 2003. All the petty things that seemed catastrophic at the time are anything but now. The boy who didn't like me, the test I had to pass, sharing a room with my sister, not being allowed to go out. It's all so trivial now. If I actually kept up with this thing it would be: My relationship with JP (although this did make up the majority of my 2004-2009 entries), my work, bills, the Friendy, lack of weight loss. Sometimes I really do wish I could just keep up with entries. Like I've said before, I don't think any of my old friends still read this, well other than Danielle.
This should have been more insightful...
This is the first time I actually attempt to type something with my new computer. Usually I write with my laptop but since that was a piece of pooo and is now in the hands of my sister I get to use my shiny desktop. Not bad at all...not sure if I could write an essay with it though. Okay enough rambling about computers.
Today I woke up at almost one o'clock in the afternoon and can't shake the feeling that I wasted my day. So of course I have been in a pretty foul mood all day. I ended up going shopping and got a free pair of undies from Victoria Secret's and a really good smelling body spray. Then I went to Sally's and bought myself a new comb and detangling spray since thanks to the tangles in my hair I ended up breaking my old comb. Bleh! Not sure if I am crazy about the spray, it's kinda heavy and makes my hair look oily. Afterward I went to Kohl's and got 2 pairs of shoes. One was originally $89.99 and I got it for $3.99 (Nuts right?) and I got a cute pair of black pumps.
The other day at work, I came across this list of ten things every woman needs to own. Although I own the majority of them I did not have black pumps lol. Now I need to find me a pair of black flats and I think I should be all set. I need to find that link and post it. lol. This lead me to the question: Why are shoes such a weakness for me? I absolutely love them and can recognize I pair of Christian Laboutin a mile away. Someday I will own a pair.... That is if I can bring myself to buy them for the insane price they go for.
Okay enough for today. I am going to wait for JP yto call now.
Bonne nuit!
***EDIT**
I found the link:
http://lifestyle.msn.com/your-look/everyday-style/articleharpers.aspx?cp-documentid=23359295
It is so weird to be in front of this screen again. I haven't been here in ages but apparently work just unblocked it.
I am actually contemplating making a meaningful entry but I don't know where to start. I would look at old entries but every time I do JP yells at me because I become emotional psycho b***h. Maybe I will later since I am stuck here till 6pm today because of a meeting.....or now lol
Alrighty done for now but writing this I realized how much I have missed this thing, though now nobody really reads it which is fine since I really just do it for myself.
Cette toute
I was cleaning up my friends list and delted all those lj's that are no longer used and accidentally deleted a couple of you.
Please don't get offended. I have added you back.
Tootles
Walked 1.7 Miles and then went swimming.
Slowly but surely I will get there.
I seem to be in a movie watching mood. I watched zodiac yesterday and just finished watching lovestory and currently am watching the little mermaid while I wait for the amytiville horror to dl.
These moods are strange but fun!
Good Gid just did a belly dancing/pilates/yoga workout and can definitely feel the burn. Hopefully I won't be in too much pain tomorrow.
JP just built me one sexy ass computer.
I feel loved!
I just found IM's between me and JP from 5 years ago including when he first asked me out and when he told me he loved me.
The latter one made me cry.
visited 14 states (28%)
Create your own visited map of The United States or Best time to visit Recoleta
Feeling much better.
Sometimes I can be a really idiot and over-react over the stupidest things. I can't I almost ended it all for such a stupid reason. I would have never forgiven myself.
I love him so much and nothing will ever change that. He is my absolute everything.
So lately I've been feeling like I am okay with my body shape. I have a "spanish" body so its pretty curved defined minus the boobs. I have a waist, hips, and an ass, so if I lost weight I would look so much more toned and better. I love how I am writing this as I eat a bowl of salad and a huge piece of quiche and promise myself I am going to work out. As soon as I home I am going to be dead tired and want to sit down and watch Sailor Moon. (That is my current obsession at the moment and I'm only on Sailor Moon R, meaning I have S, Super S, and Stars to go through.) I haven't even cleaned my room and its really starting to bug me. Maybe I will do that today. I seem to be energetic today and if its a nice day I might clean my car today because that will keep me away from my tv and anime.
In other news: Yesterday's Honors Convocation ceremony turned out to be a huge deal. I was completely unaware it was. I left work early and everything, then argued with JP about him wearing the shirt I got him. He is very stubborn but he did just for me. I might try to get him another one that he can wear for my graduation. He says I'm embarrassed about how he dresses, which is definitely not the case. I just believe that for graduation (since everybody will be dressed up) he should make an effort, especially since I will be showing him off to Danielle's parents and everybody at the Registrar;s office. Yesterday I also got to see Jennifer, Lauren, and Elaine from the Reg's office. Lauren kept commenting how professional I looked and Jennifer asked me if I was happy at my job and when I told her "yes, very much so" she said "No, you're supposed to be miserable because we still haven't hired anybody." I found that amusing. I also saw Sylvie (french professor and reason I studied abroad in France and pursued a French minor) we like greeted each other with the two kissed and begin chatting in french. HAHAHA my family and JP just stared. I introduced them to her as well as Noonan (my programming professor).
So now thanks to being a Presidential Scholar, I get to wear special tassles on my robe on graduation.
Let the awkwardness begin.
Last night I had a really bizarre dream. I was in Central and apparently had been out for like 2 weeks because of being sick with the horribleness. Anyways I was in Mr. McCue's class which is really bizarre and we had a huge project due and I was really far behind and we were suppose to do research in this crazy hidden files room and I stole a book from it so I could work on it from home even though we weren't allowed to take them out. So McCue follows me home and yells at me. WTF?
First of all I haven't been in high school for almost 4 years, let alone in his history class. I sure as hell don't have any huge history reports due and there are no ancient hidden periodical rooms in Central. I did find it kinda scary how I had been sick and out for 2 weeks because of "stuff". Hopefully that is not like foreshadowing something. It could just be that in RL I have been worrying about it.
In other news: Tomorrow is Honors Commencement and I have to go because I am a Presidential Scholar. Bleh, I would rather not, but my parents are making me and so I am dragging a dressed-up JP to the church ceremony. For those of you who have participated in it before, could you tell me how long these things run?) I am probably going to just go in my work clothes since they are fancy enough. I don't remember the last time I was in a church so this should be interesting. Also hopefully JP is on his best behavior.
Honestly at this rate, I don't even want to go to graduation, but again my parents are dragging me. I don't even want a party but apparently am having one, so keep your eyes peeled for invites. (Yeah its going to have invitations and everything, bleh!).
I am not in the celebrating mood since I have technically graduated months ago. Seems kinda pointless to celebrate now. Hey at least I get to walk with Danielle, so that should be cool and hear them butcher my name as they announce Bachelor's in business adminstration Magna Cum Laude.
Okay I'm done.
Today is another Zombie day for me, this time not because of an early meeting but because I went to the "Music as a Weapon Show", and am feeling the consequences. Don't get me wrong the show was wicked fun, but owww. So Danielle and I somehow lost her brother and his friends and end up in the pit because Lacuna Coil had went on first and we wanted to see Cristina. Anyways all is fine and I'm enjoying it alot and we keep trying to move forward and end behind this "lovely" guy with dreadlocks who is sitting Indian style on the floor lighting up. Wtf lol. Then he starts moving around and somehow a mosh pit is created and we are thankfully on the outer edge and then Lacuna's set finishes and we go and find her brother who is sitting up on the seats. Hahah we hand him our bags and stuff and then head back down for Chimara. BIG MISTAKE. Everything is fine and again we try to move to the front and end up behind another "lovely" guy smoking something (weed laced with something most likely) which smells horrible, so I am avoiding breathing for a good while. Then the idiot moves in front of Danielle and another most pit begins and again we try to push back to avoid it. All of a sudden I am pushed and somehow end up in the middle of it, Danielle is holding on to my arm for dear life as I am getting almost knocked down but then pulled back up. I have no idea WTF is going on and am trying to get out because I don't enjoy getting hit. The next thing I know I am on my back on the ground and my ass is wet because I landed in a puddle of beer. Then Danielle drags we out and we end up going to sit with her brother and his friends and I l proceed to tell them why the back of my shirt and ass are wet. We ended up staying up there for the rest of the bands bands because No chance in hell I was going to risk going through that again. The show was sold out and the pit all of a sudden was packed. Anyways Killswitch was pretty good and amused me because Adams got a whole bunch of girls to flash. Disturbed had a good entrance, though the lead singer definately has a cult leader prescence. Danielle and I leave early because I don't want to end up stuck in the clausterphobic mess of everybody getting out and we have an amusing encounter with her friend Dan and then freeze our asses for liek 1/2 an hr waiting for her brothers to get out. Eventually I get home at 12:30 am and collapse onto my bed with chills.
Today I woke up with the same chills, a headache, nauseau, and things spinning. I dragged myself to work because I hate calling out (Haven't done it yet). So I have been dealing with all this. The spinning thing is annoying. Now of course I am sitting here trying to figure out the cause of all this and it is either. A. the cold from waiting. B. The bug Danielle had C. Whatever the f**k we ended up smelling that, that guy was smoking, or D. The water I drank.
Blahrg I want a nap.
Overall wicked fun night, now I just need to stop feeling so crappy.
Blahrg! I feel a bit like a screw up at work today. I have soooooo mcuh to do and things keep getting piled on. I also almost fell asleep in a meeting WTF! I don't understand why since I went to bed at 10:30pm last night. Probably my insane paranoia over the tampon incident, which was obviously a false alarm since I'm not dead nor am showing any symptoms for tss.
Hopefully tonight's concert will cheer me up.
Highly annoyed at work right now. BLAHRGH!!!!!!
So Easter turned out to be really good. Since my culture doesn't really celebrate it, I went over to JP's house like usual. His mom made amazing yummy food and gave me Easter candy. Needless to say yesterday was my fat day. I spent the majority of it wrapped up in a blanky, whie JP held me. Pure heaven! We watched the Dr. Who Easter special and finished season 1 of Galactica. I NEED SEASON 2. Thankfully he owns the whole series, so tomorrow when I see him, I shall have more Galactica. Oye, to really liking this considering how much fun I used to make of him. I even have a sticker which I need to put on my car. Besides watching nerdy tv, JP also rooted my g1 and now its even prettier than before. The extra perks of dating a nerd! He will make it even prettier once he finds other apps. YAY!
Today has been kinda quiet. I haven't had that many e-mails, so I have been catching up on my portfolio. This should keep me busy the rest of the day. I also have finally braved the world of tampons and keep worrying I am going to get TSS. Yes I trully am nuts.
When I get home, I will hopefully clean my room and then maybe work out. I really need to get in shape. I am a fat icky blob. Fortunately I think JP and I are not eating out as much as we used to cuz we're saving to both get new cars. Hahah we both might end up getting the same one.
So yup that's life at the moment.
I has a G1 b***hes!!!!!
Holy shit the VP of tax brought in chocolate covered strawberries. I am in heaven!
JP just left and all I can say is ....Wow.
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