Eh, my Real Gems are too scandalous (ohlala) for August. So, you get these:
“On the walk home a dude yelled to me, ‘You right thick, Girl!’ from his car window.”
“Worked at IHOP and then Barnes & Noble. That’s where I discovered quite suddenly where my Jesus Toast story was going it was going somewhere without Jesus and without Toast.”
“I even basically fit into my Zebra Pants.”
“Another day of casual bobbing.”
“Bobbing in the morning, afternoon, and evening.”
“Oh, and I am, perhaps for the first time in my life TAN!”
“I was over my yearly budget… by $1.72.”
“I was on my game FUNNY! Sometimes I can do that when I meet new people.”
“Tired, needed to curl up, cramps. A lot of pain. Made it to my class - barely. Went home, curled up.”
“[It] went much, much, much better. Or, the same, but I didn’t cry afterwards.”
Attempted to sign Iron & Wines Trapeze Swinger, since I was hoping so badly someone on YouTube would do it! Errr, I wish I had Deaf friends so I could practice & be better! Its sort of a part ASL / PSE version. Hard to do total ASL if you are going along with the song.
“I feel guilty for not being able to condense myself down into fewer notebooks.”
“What we like about each other is that we hang out with each other.”
“I relax people because I am so anxious that I make people calm me down and that makes them feel in control and confident.”
“Things I FAILED at today: writing, reading, being productive, limiting myself on the internet, not crying, not watching too much tv, not putting myself down.”
”____ told a story about abortion flags that had us in tears, laughing.”
“Tried to write. Finally I gave up and watched American Idol.”
“I avoided writing all day.”
“I got a weird painting of a dog and sunglasses with a pink background and Star Wars sheets which I promptly sewed into a dress.”
“Then I went to Target forrechargeablebatters and came back with two flowered dresses and one flowered jumpsuit.”
“I took a masterful shower.” (These are from my April/May notebooks.)
Those are my famous (ADULT) gummy vitamins. I am SO adult that I left my adult gummy vitamins in the car, and they melted together in one lump and now I have to bite them off in chunks.
I play songs on repeat until people near me want to tear out their eyeballs. So, if you want to pretend that you are near me, just play this song on repeat until you tear out your eyeballs.
As you can see my blog is still mariaink.com but it’s purged of its earlier ramblings and is now hosted by tumblr. Oooh, ahhh.(It’s so new, you might even be able to see your own reflection in it.) (Trying to add a comment feature. I’ll see what I can do!)
Anyone can carry his burden, however hard, until nightfall. Anyone can do his work, however hard, for one day. Anyone can live sweetly, patiently, lovingly, purely, till the sun goes down. And this is all life really means. -Robert Louis Stevenson Animals by Frank OHara
A wise man proportions his belief to the evidence. -David Hume
The only real ill-doing is the deprivation of knowledge. -Plato etc.
"If I did not believe in life, if I were to lose faith in the woman I love, if I were to lose faith..."
If I did not believe in life, if I were to lose faith in the woman I love, if I were to lose faith in the order of things, even if I were to become convinced, on the contrary, that everything is a disorderly, damned, and perhaps devilish chaos, if I were struck even by all the horrors of human disillusionment still I would want to live.
