I wish I could allow myself to let the thoughts in my mind and words on my lips flow freely down and out of my fingertips, but right now I can't.  I must keep all my thoughts sealed perfectly in a little baggie until I can learn to trust again...and figure out where I'm going and what I am doing.  Last night brought me great peace and happiness, but now I sit here tonight once again feeling empty and just wondering all the what ifs in life...  If I can trust then I know the answers to those what ifs...but if I can't then what?  I mean how does one really know what the "real truth" is when everyone else's illusion of it is different...perhaps it's all one big delusion and I'm just a part of someone else's story line.

For now though my lips are sealed and they will be for awhile...