i dont understand why it is that i always have to do everything. i mean everything and i can never quit, ever. nd then i wonder why i get so stressed and get a migraine so bad that i cant see straight. its very annoying but its just the way i am. any body want to explain my mind to me?

ok so noah does not remember ever saying that it was over. so he is just saying that it never happened. i talked to him today, finally after like 2 days. its weird...im talking to him like nothing ever happened. he doesnt ever remember saying its over.

DRJazzy89:just dont leave me with an its over anymore
Narwill88:well, that wont b a problem cuz i never did leave u with an its over
Narwill88:i never even said that

i guess i just overreacted. like usual....i dont know i dont get it. but whatever...my mind is messed up and i no and everyone around me knows it. well i g2g eat then watch Lost and Alias...cya later

just got home from the way out games!! for anyone who doesnt know its the Battle of the Classes at my school. and sophmore's kick ASS!! our class won for the second year in a row. everyone had to wear their class color.. and guess what? our class color is PINK. me dont like pink. so today is the only day anyone will ever see me in pink. and its quite scary looking at me and im in all pink....or from my waist up. well g2g...later

i just got home from my interview at mystic aquarium. i went for an interview so i can volunteer there this summer. it is going to be so cool. i am sooooo excited!!!! i take classes the first three weekends in june to learn everything and theni start. i will give tours and help in other places. i am really excited. considering i want to be a marine biologist, this is a good thing for me to do. ok so im going to say it again....I AM REALLY EXCITED!!!!!! alright thats its for now i have homework to do and i really want to read somemore of this book...later

If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal/blog.

im so tired of everything and everyone. i have to learn 36 chapters in my history book in 3 WEEKS!!! me being the stupid one decided to take the honors history class. and now i am taking the college test that goes along with it. and i know absolutely nothing about this. i have started studying and in one week i have gotten through 1 chapter. this is not going to be fun at all. at least it will be easy to study for my final now. and yes even after this massive test i still have to take a final for history like a month later. its not fair at all. and plus studying for this test, i have to do physical therapy two days a week. one day in the pool and the other day on land. it sucks going in the pool cuz i cant just get right out and go home. i have to take a shower when i get out because i am allergic to chlorine.then i work and dance and babysit, plus USY. i love doing everythign but there comes a time when it just gets way too stressful. next week is april vacation and i need a vacation so badly, but i have to spend it studying for my history test. AHHH!!!! i definetly think i am going to go crazy...or more crazy considering i already am crazy. well i g2g clean my room before i babysit...later

i forgot to mention that my cousin, Ally went off to go train for thenavy yesterday. i am missing her already. i never expected her to be the type of person that would go in to the navy, but her dad was in the navy and it pays for college. she wants to be a nurse, so by going into thenavy she can become a nurse and she can help out her country. she trains for six weeks, comes home for a little while and then goes back. we are all going to miss her. i wish she could come home for Briana's bat mitzvah, considering Shari is due that same week. Shari is actually due the day of Brie's Bat Mitzvah, which is quite ironic. im not exactly sure how i feel about this baby yet. im happy for Shari, but if this baby turns out like victoria, i dont think many people will be able to stand it. victoria is a stuck up little brat and she is only 3 years old. ok....i will stop saying negative things. i am very happy for Shari and Ray and i hope this baby is great, i know it will. ok..well gotta study for my stupid massive college history test. later

its APRIL VACATION!!! it doesnt feel like it though. it feels like i am going to come back next week. im stupid. i went to physical therapy yesterday. and then i went to work and since no one was in the office to do all of the running stuff i had to do it. so i ran up and down the steps about 30 million times and then i danced. how smart am i? now today i cant walk at all. no stairs no bending, and my knees creak. i hate when they do that cuz it feels so disgusting. well i gotta go finish packing for maryland. i am going to maryland for 4 days, driving down there tomorrow at 6 a.m. then i am flying back with my daddy on tuesday so i can study for my friggin massive college history AP exam. its two week from tuesday. i have to learn 36 chapters....im nuts. well talk to you all when i get back ....bye

just got home from maryland. went down their to see my grandparents and my aunts uncles and my monsters. already have bruises from them and i saw them ONCE! i love them though....for anyone who doesnt know my monsters are my adorable cousins....that was sarcasm. they are cute though and i love them but they are pure monsters. anyway i went to washington DC while i was down there...and walked like 4 miles in one day...and yes i know that isnt a lot but when i cant walk cuz of my screwed up knees it is a lot. then the next day we went to baltimore aquarium...again we walked alot and again my knees hurt....i am very screwed up. lol...i got sunburnt twice...i know a sunburn isnt good but ill be nice and tan afterwards and im gonna look good...lol...ok well i gotta go to bed cuz i gotta get up early to study for my AP test....FUN!!! see ya

Dayna

vacation is supposed to be a time when i see people...mainly noah. well this vacation i cant see him cuz passover is around the corner and he has stuff to do at home. this would have been the only time i wuld have been able to see him in like 5 weeks. it sucks!! i really miss him. sometimes it makes me wonder if this long distance relationship thing is ok. im not going to dump him because i dont get to see him, thats a stupid reason. it just kinda makes me wonder...well jackie is here and we are gonna hang out so later gaters!!!

Dayna

Back to school and it sucks. it just means that my AP test is comign that much sooner. i have so much to learn for that test plus all the other hw i have to do in my otherclasses and a project due for history. i stress myself out too much. at least there is no work this week, only dance, babysitting, physical therapy and USY. and whats even worse is that the day we go back to midrasha im going to be at spring convention so i wont be able to see noah. im really excited for spring convention but i really want to see noah. i cant wait for spring though.i need a break so badly...from all the stressing things in my life....which is pretty much everything. well gotta go pick out invitiations, copy history crap, and go to physical therapy for an hour....fun...later

Dayna

today is the nine month anniversary of Noah and me. omg it does not feel like nine months AT ALL!!! im so happy...but i havent talked to him in about a week...so i dotn even know if he remembers or anything....well just wanted to put that in....got a ton of stuff to do..later

Narwill88:ok, so, hillel said, 3 attributes made up the perfect person, by asking 3 basic questions,
1)If I am not for myself who will be for me.
2)If I am only for myself what am I?
3) If not now, when?
Narwill88: ok, so u got, 1,3. do u have 2?
Narwill88: i mean
Narwill88: u got 2,3, do u have 1?
Narwill88: do u do acts that only benifit yourself?
DRJazzy89: i dont know
DRJazzy89:i dont think so...but i dont kow
DRJazzy89:know*
DRJazzy89:why are u asking?
Narwill88:because everyone needs some 'me' time
Narwill88: wheres urs?
DRJazzy89: i dont actually think i ever have anytime for some
Narwill88:dont u see that as a problem?
DRJazzy89: i guess so...but i like what im doing...right now im stressed cuz of this test...but dancing and working and USY i like it....
DRJazzy89:and im not the type of person that can just sit in front of the TV not doing anything
Narwill88:but that time is important
Narwill88: if u have no stress free time, how do u de-stress?
DRJazzy89: i agree...but i can do it for like 5 minutes and then i cant stand it anymore
DRJazzy89:i dance
DRJazzy89:i talk to you
DRJazzy89:i dunno...thats just the way i am and i dont thnk i have ever been different
DRJazzy89:u wanna know what my "me" time is? its before i go to bed at like 11:30 when i read something that has nothing to do with hw
Narwill88:wow
DRJazzy89: yea...thats bad isnt it?
Narwill88:muy

anybody know how to fix me?

Today was Friday the 13th. Most people think that only bad things can happen on Firday the 13th, but i think your luck could go either way. today my luck went good...for once. i went to the doctor's this afternoon. he said that i might have torn cartilage, but since he couldnt see it on the MRI, that he might need to scope it. like go into my knee with a mini camera. but before he does that he wants me to go to another doctor, a sport's medicine doctor. i have an appointment w/ him on tuesday. im actually kind of hoping something is wrong just so they can fix it cuz it hurts soooo much. its like a sharp shooting pain and its not fun. and plus right now i cant dance and my dance recital is in a month and a half. i cant quit so close to recital so i need to get better soon. i do my excercises, i stay off my knee, i ice it..i do everything. but i dont think it is going to get better. and plus, the problem they think i have isnt fixable and will never go away.

another reason why my friday the 13th was good was because i saw noah tonight. it was a USY dinner tonight and i had to wait tables. and i dont know how, but noah came too, to wait tables. his friend Naomi got him to come. and that doesnt make me jealous, which is good. i got a little jealous tonight but it went away. i trust him. i have to cuz i dont see him all the time. but yeaso he made my friday the 13th good too....considering i havent seen him for 6 weeks. and i see him agian on sunday for hebrew school and midrasha. ;-) :-)...any way i gotta get some sleep tonight. later

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Star Wars Horoscope for Cancer

http://www.quizdiva.net/swhoroscopes/cancer.jpg">> You may whine at times, but you've developed a thick hard shell (like that of a crab). You are strong willed and persistent - until you get what you want. You never shy away from a fight, even when things get dangerous. Mentally sharp, you are starting to master the elements of mind manipulation. Star wars character you are most like: Luke Skywalker

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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.