well, I booked my flight to Ascendio last night... Goodness. I shall arrive on wednesday evening (july 11th), at 7:21. I am again flying with Air Canada. If you happen to spot a plane with a red maple leaf on it around then, it will no doubt be mine! I shall return home on monday the 16th.
I had a very lovely breakfast with Diane earlier. I gave her a photobook filled with pictures from our most recent session, and she gave me tins containing soothing teas... We had such a nice time chatting. I showed her my latest ink, and within moments our table was surrounded by waitresses wanting to look at (and uh, admire) the arm of Snapeness, which made me smile.
I shall be overjoyed to show it to you at Ascendio.
Diane also told me about her acupuncturist and how calming the treatments were, and I thought it would be a good idea for me to schedule a few appointments in the coming months. It will help my head and nerves... It will strengthen me.
Thank you so much for your kindness to me, most beloved. It is an immense blessing to know you.
I have just finished the foreword re: The Severus Snape Paradigm... I think it is possibly all right. The foreword is an important part of the book, and I think it will set the tone well. I had to revisit painful times, but the theme of hope shines throughout.
Now, the first essay awaits. Mercy. I shall start working on it this weekend.
The first essay! Another one. Hard to believe, but here I am, about to write nine more interconnected essays on Professor Snape, hope and love.
Today was good. Last night, I had to rest... I had been gripped by a nauseatingly intense headache. I applied Tiger balm on my temples and went to bed early. This morning my head was still fragile, but soon I felt better. I ate toast with fresh raspberries, took a soothing hot shower, meditated for half an hour. I used my cushion; I had tried meditating whilst sitting upon a chair, but I find it much easier to focus on the cushion, perhaps because it is more physically demanding (I can only manage a quarter lotus, but even that requires concentration).
The black Snape nightgown is a Go. I am very happy about that. It will be so beautiful.
I shall be purchasing my plane tickets this weekend or monday re: Ascendio. Goodness... I shall be flying business class again. I know it is outrageous, but I found it so helpful last time. It made travelling almost not an ordeal.
Tomorrow, I shall be having breakfast with my dearest Diane, and that will be very nice. After my next tattoo has healed, I shall ask her to do a portrait session with me wearing a suit, and exposing my arms.
Speaking of tattoos, I am really looking forward to tuesday... Snape's wand. That will be such a lovely sight.
Kambriel loved the design idea I shared with her...
So, it will happen!
I have asked her to turn her beautiful bastian shirt into a long, flowing nightgown.
It will be black.
You can see the wonderful sleeves very well in this photo (though the fabric is red):
The buttons at the cuffs will be fabric covered.
Here you can see the actual fabric (the fellow is wearing a jacket over the shirt); I too shall wear the ascot around the collar:
The nightgown will flare out, and it will have a short train. It will fall just on top of my feet (I shall wear black babouches with it).
Over this nightgown, I shall wear the princely cassock (black brocade with pleats at the back, black velvet buttons, velvet cuffs), which will make a rather splendid lounging coat. I shall leave it open, so that the nightgown can be seen in all its glory and to allow for billowing. It will be nightwear fit for, well, a prince! It will be most relaxing after a day of wearing my heavier robes. Perhaps I shall don the nightwear during the fashion show, too. We shall see...
I had thought the snapecase reveals were yesterday (that is what I saw on the profile page), but I guess not... It should be soon, I imagine.
I am currently reading Prisoner of Azkaban. I am giving priority to the Potter novels; I no longer have any idea if I shall be able to read even half of my original reading list. Ah, well... Apart from the Potter books, I suppose Meditations on the Tarot and The Secret Teachings of All Ages will take precedence. I shall do the best I can.
towards the end of the afternoon, I lay down for a nap... I woke up four hours later. I think I was somewhat worn out.
The other day, I was given quite the gift. David Maddux, who has been a composer and arranger for over thirty years, had stumbled upon my website and found my imagery and scribblings so inspiring that he created a beautiful piece of music based on them, music which he kindly sent me. You can listen to it here. To say that I was surprised would be an understatement!
In other news, I have been working on the book...
In other other news, I have again asked Kambriel if she would design a special garment for me. I shall tell you what it is once I get her response. It will be for Ascendio... Something I would wear during the evenings (apart from the ball), to relax. Well, it will be very elegant relaxation, I can tell you that. I am still working out my wardrobe details. I have been thinking that it might be neat if I wore my black sleeveless Kambriel Snape vest underneath my frock coat for the fashion show; once I reach the end of the catwalk, I would remove the frock coat (it will probably be an amusing moment when I undo those buttons, I have a feeling), and thus reveal the arm of Snapeness. What do you think? I shall be wearing the sleeveless vest with the gothic skull pattern during the ball.
Oh, and tomorrow will be the reveals for snapecase; I shall be able to tell you which story I scribbled.
I am so looking forward to Ascendio. It will be the perfect way to celebrate ten marvelous years of Snapestering.
I made my next tattoo appointment this morning... It will be on february 7th.
(It is almost february already? Arg!)
Tiffany will be doing two things. First, she will darken my first lily just a touch, then add a leaf and an unopened bud to it. Second, she will add Professor Snape's wand, with the vial containing his silver blue tears near the tip (more painful fantastic wrist tattooing action for me!). The vial crosses the wand at a slight angle. It will be very beautiful.
After that, the arm of Snapeness -also known as the Mighty Arm of Snape- will be pretty much finished...
These past few days, I have often been deep in thought about The Severus Snape Paradigm. I get into what could be described as the Mystical Snape Zone, and insights come to me.
I still feel like a neophyte, however. Ah, well!
I am feeling a little more relaxed about the book and Ascendio because I now know that I shall have a bit of a break in 2013: Aeternitas will not take place that year. I shall stay home, work on more books... Then it appears I shall return to Salem in 2014. A convention there is in the very first stages of planning... If such a gathering interests you, visit alabastard's journal and let him know!
Well, I am off to work on the foreword... I want to finish it before the end of january. Then I shall be only one essay behind re: impossible yet possible writing schedule.
I am having a truly delightful time scanning and fixing the photographs in my old album (I finally installed Photo Studio on my computer)... The lulu photobook I shall make for my mom will give her a lot of joy, I am certain. I can hardly wait to surprise her with it.
Here is another of the photos for you...
Back when I was a little defender of Love, Hope and Freedom in the making.
And a little Snapester in the making (arms resolutely folded across the chest!).
This photo was taken when I was in the third grade or so... Around 1977.
Oh, the interesting things the future had in store for me.
I have not had to warm up the magic bag yet, but it should happen today or tomorrow... However, everything is peaceful, and that does help a lot.
Planning happy mischief also helps!
At some point during Ascendio, mingbutterfly and I shall be replicating an Absolutely Fabulous moment (we both utterly love this show). verus_janus will be taking the photos.
mingbutterfly and I are calling it Absolutely Bella & Severus.
We are basing the shot on this picture, with me doing the Pasty pose, and mingbutterfly doing the Eddy pose:
It is highly likely that we shall both be a bit hammered when this takes place, which will no doubt increase the merriment.
Previous instance of merriment (when she was here for a visit and a group of us went to see Deathly Hallow part 2 again):
Not too long ago, I had been looking through an old photo album, and saw that I have done this, putting my hand over my face when I am amused, since I was very little. There is a picture of me doing exactly the same thing as in the photo above, except that I was dressed in a pink robe and holding a doll.
What the heck.
Here, I have just scanned and fixed the small photograph... It was taken with one of those cameras with the cube flash bulbs, remember those?
I might have been laughing or hiding my dismay at being trapped in an early 1970s pink nightmare ;-)
I need to scan all those old photos and make a lulu album for my mom... She would be very happy.
If you are thinking of coming to Ascendio, please do. It will be a very jolly affair!
today, after I have had a hopefully semi-decent night's sleep (I need to get myself to bed), it will be supremely quiet. I am feeling not so fantastic. By the end of next week, I shall be in better spirits, and no longer feeling so run down.
If I have trouble sleeping, I shall nap in the afternoon.
It is always good to have a tranquil refuge, but some days, it is especially welcome.
I am incensed by growing, monolithic corporate abuse and greed. They want to own -in an absolute manner- everything from DNA to culture and myth, do they?
Human beings are not living dollar signs, whose worth is only measurable by the extent to which they are willing to be passive and exploitable consumers.
I am reminded of an ad I recently saw, for some sort of anti-depressant medication. According to the images they used, a happy, functional and well-adjusted person is, apparently, someone who is able to shop for shoes again and keep up with the latest normative fashions. Appropriately enough, the person was portrayed as a wind-up toy.
This is what Hollywood is saying and what they are planning: push for more criminal federal and international enforcement, use the courts to get civil injunctive relief, and keeping rewriting the copyright laws in their favor. Remember the lawsuit against Youtube is still to be decided. Imagine Youtube being out out of business just like Megaupload (although Youtube is not even coming close to pulling some of the boneheaded Megaupload moves).
"SOPA protesters roundly cheered when DNS-blocking was taken out of the anti-piracy bills before Congress. But just because Congress won't explicitly approve such measures doesn't mean that they won't happen. In piracy cases going forward, Holllywood can ask sympathetic judges to grant such relief anyway."
Since I know we're in it for the long haul and that the efforts to silence speech in favor of corporate interests will continue, I plan to carry on with the SOPA Boycott in March.
Nor am I alone in coming to this conclusion:
"The MPAA studios hate us. They hate us with region locks and unskippable screens and encryption and criminalization of fair use. They see us as stupid eyeballs with wallets, and they are entitled to a constant stream of our money. They despise us, and they certainly don’t respect us.
Yet when we watch their movies, we support them....They use our support to buy these laws.
So maybe, instead of waiting for the MPAA’s next law and changing our Twitter avatars for a few days in protest, it would be more productive to significantly reduce or eliminate our support of the MPAA member companies starting today, and start supporting campaign finance reform." More "On The Next SOPA."
Note: To give as much support to small independents as possible keeps things in balance, I think.
The late and great Mr. Johnny Cash sums it up for me as follows:
May your walls fall and may I live to tell
There is a time to bow, and a time to give the finger, as it were.
In other news, I have been feeling very tired these past few days. No doubt this is due to a combination of the cold weather and everything being icy (I cannot get the back door open, and I almost got myself in a car accident on three separate occasions), and the fact I am about to be indisposed. I have also been having trouble sleeping. Vivid dreams... One night, I dreamed I was at a convention (surprise!). Someone wished to have a discussion, but karen_jk wanted to rest, and we went to a spot by ourselves. I lay down to sleep, right next to this wall that was composed entirely of glass, then felt vertigo when I looked down (we were in a high rise building). So I moved away from the glass, but somehow the floor began to tip sharply and I rolled toward the wall, and then fell down the building because the glass has disappeared. At which point I told myself, It's just a dream, and I was once again walking on the level floor where I had been lying. Then I thought that even if the floor should tip once more, I could fly, and that is exactly what happened next: the floor began to tip, I slid, and started to fly instead of falling.
So, I am going to rest this weekend... Read. Meditate.
I did have an extremely nice dinner with sheryll yesterday; it was wonderful to see her. I asked her all about her latest travels and we talked about interesting cooking shows. I also had a lovely breakfast with Reverend Eric, and we joyfully discussed all manner of heretical and subversive ideas.
Next week, I am really getting into work on The Severus Snape Paradigm (speaking of heresy and subversion). As I told sheryll yesterday, I have been sitting with my fingers hovering over the keyboard, because once I truly get going, then it will get written, and eventually, be read by someone...
I have overcome my reticence before, and shall be going so now.
a loved one over on my Facebook page alerted me to the fact that the good folks on The Mary Sue picked up on Offbeat Home's post about the dungeons.
Apparently, my nuttiness quirkiness is making the rounds. Oh my gosh, it is so funny. But I am happy that my surroundings are a source of joy to those who have seen the photos and share my proclivities...
Yesterday, I spent a couple of hours sorting all the envelopes that had been piled on my desk and crammed into my letter holder. It will be easier to work on the book now that I have sorted things that needed to be sorted (especially since they were on my desk, within view of my fastidious self).
if you will recall, a couple of weeks ago, I mentioned that the dungeons would be featured on the blog Offbeat Home...
Well, goodness. You can now find the post here. It is entitled, "The Dungeons: my Professor Snape-inspired office" -as ever, spreading the Snape love.
My life is really a funky adventure. There is no other way to describe it ;-)
Time for a bath, a couple of errands (such as getting a bottle of Grand Marnier), and then I shall read read read, and procrastinate due to my gnawing and torturous sense of inadequacy confidently work on the book...